Tuesday, July 29, 2008

I've died to myself. Now what?

So as I said in previous blogs, you have to DIE to yourself. Give up everything you thought you stood for, and just die. But, I am just now learning how awefully wrong that can go, if you don't find life. You can die to yourself and not care or worry about things, but if you don't fill yourself with Him, you will eventually just be left either lazy and empty, or go back to figuring everything out on your own.


Basically, dieing to yourself is more than only giving things up to Him. It's spending time with Him, it's listening for Him, it's doing anything to get closer to Him. It's not only about giving up everything you have, but also looking to Him to fill that. You're dieing to yourself so you can make room for Him, so LET HIM IN! Just dieing to yourself would be pointless.


So all I can do is encourage you to focus on HIM, by not worrying about everything, and spending time with Him. It's true, He will take care of things in your life when you just focus on Him and love/spend time with Him. So die to yourself, but remember WHY you're dieing. LOOK TO HIM.



Matthew 10:38-39 *The Message
38-39"If you don't go all the way with me, through thick and thin, you don't deserve me. If your first concern is to look after yourself, you'll never find yourself. But if you forget about yourself and look to me, you'll find both yourself and me.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Camp WOW: Experience 3

So for my final experience, I'm going to take you to the 2nd to last DAY of camp, leading up the last night. We were down by the lake, having our cardboard boat races when Ketric comes up to me. I hadn't seen him all week, because he was with mid high, and he wanted to talk. So we went on up to the cafeteria and chatted about camp, and some things that have gone on in my life recently. I thought it was a chat, but then he wanted me to do something for the service.


So I went early and talked to the head guy in charge of running the experiences at night, and apparently I was chosen from the Edmond campus to be part of it. There were 12 other kids there too. Now, when I learned what I was going to get to do, to be honest I was REALLY excited. You see, that night they wanted to do a "cardboard testimony" thing to the song "Jesus Paid It All." (Great song.) So, they handed me a posterboard and a marker, and said "tell YOUR story." On one side, it was your story before you saw Jesus, and on the other it was how He came into the situation.


So, I immediately knew what my story would be. That is, my parents splitting this year and me having to endure that. On the "negative" side of my board, I wrote "Seeing parents split", on the flip side, aka Jesus side, I wrote "seeking Heavenly Father." So the night came, and it was time for me to stand in front of 700 people and share my testimony. I walked on stage, and as I flipped that sign, and heard all the cheering for Jesus, it hit me. HE IS THE ANSWER TO MY STRUGGLES AND THE THINGS THE DEVIL HAS PUT INTO MY LIFE. That night was so empowering, and I loved helping others with my story.


So now I have to ask you, what's your story? If you could tell one issue that goes on in your life, what would it be? What would the flip side aka Jesus side say? Or would it be blank as to where you are right now? Are you not SEEING Jesus in the situation? Well He's always there, you just have to seek Him. Mark 7:7.


Monday, July 21, 2008

2nd Camp Wow Experience

Okay, so moving on with our Camp Wow experience here, I'm going to take you to the 3rd night of camp. See, this night was a huge night for me randomly, because in worship I realized a HUGE thing. That was, that in my life I ignore the pain around me and use God as an excuse by saying "Well I'm looking to God instead of the pain" but the truth was, I was just ignoring the pain altogether. So once I realized this, in worship I prayed that God would put all that pain on me but in a good way, so that I could remember the pain of my parents splitting, dad drinking, etc. And that I wouldn't ever end up that way.


So in worship, all this pain just completely comes over me. It hits me like a ton of bricks, and I just started BAWLING. I haven't cried that hard in a REALLY long time. But see, I loved the pain because I was taking it on and fighting through it. Finding the beauty of it through Him. As I was crying and worshiping, I got all these words in my head so I decided to write them down. These are them, word for word, nothing changed. Authentic from when it happened:


It's time to take on the pain, and conquer it. I can't just go through acting like life's good. I've been ripped so many things for a reason, and that is to find Him. NO MORE IGNORING. He does help me through hard times, but I've made myself numb to pain, which could let me fall into the same traps as those that have hurt me. If you're numb, you can't feel what He needs you to experience. My alternative to pain has not been God, it's been ignoring it. I try to fix it from the OUTSIDE IN by being numb and acting for Him. I seem to think I need to be strong for everyone else. You (as in God) have given me all these things, and I want to use them so bring on the pain.


You see, these words were given to me, and I can only hope they help you like they helped me. It was a very amazing experience, and I'll always remember it. Just remember, He must fix you from the INSIDE OUT.

Oh, and the dog joined us that night in our small group ;] imagine that.

Camp WOW: Experience 1

Okay, so as I said in the previous post, a lot happened at camp WOW! I've decided to seperate all of it into 3 posts, with 3 different experiences. This, as the title says, is the first one. It happened the second night and was just really cool!


Okay, so we're in worship, and talking about praying and connecting with God while people break away and go write things on the prayer wall. A lot of people were crying, but for some reason I was just sitting there. When I tried to worship, for the first time God told me that I needed to go pray over someone. At first this weirded me out and I just ignored Him and kept worshiping. But, there was a huge block in my worship, and He was just saying NO, GO PRAY OVER SOMEONE EVEN BEFORE YOU WORSHIP ME. So, I finally gave in.


My first question to God was, "alright, WHO do you want me to pray over?" After about 10 minutes, two names came to my mind. Those were my friend Jordan, and my cousin Elie. I still had no idea why I needed to though. So during worship still, I look around and see neither. After a while I just realize that isn't the right time snd I need to wait. Here's where it gets crazy.


After service, walking out to our small groups, someone is walking in front of me. As she turns around, I realize its Jordan! And, she was crying and tells me we need to talk and I'm like YES WE DO! So after small groups, we walk around the camp and just discuss the service and we both prayed over each other. While we were walking, that verse that says "For where two or more gather, I am there" came to mind. So I said it, and there was one of the camp dogs following us next to Jordan. I made a joke about the dog and how He represented God and we laughed.


We keep walking around, and it keep followings us (the dog). After a while though it walks off and we keep talking. Well, when we finally stop to pray over each other, I can see the dog about 4 yards away laying down just looking at us. I think it's kind of ironic that He was watching us, but still ignore it. We continue and start praying and when we open our eyes the dog is sitting right next to us looking up (at us). This dog just gave me an overwhelming comfort for some reason, kind of seeing that God really was there.


Another cool part of this story, is that while Jordan and I were walking around talking, I had just told her about how I also needed to pray over Elie. She kind of just went with it, but we were really struck about a minute later. We passed Elie and 3 of her friends, and she was bawling. She runs up to me and says "ALEC! WHERE WERE YOU? I NEEDED YOU SO BAD IN THE SERVICE AND NOONE COULD UNDERSTAND!" So I'm like I KNEW YOU DID! And we talked more later and it all worked out well. It was just cool to be that reassured both ways from God that I really was supposed to pray over them :].


Expect more in the following days.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

I'm Home!

I'M HOME!!!!! Camp was amazing as always, and I really got to know some people better. The experience cannot be described in one blog, but I will try in multiple. STARTING TOMORROW! I'm exhausted right now so I'm going to rest and chill, but information on how it went will be on the way :].

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Camp WOW!!!!!

I'm going to camp WOW tomorrow morning! I will not be updating until atleast Sunday, so be praying that all of us get there and back safe, and experience God like never before! Talk to everyone soon!


-Alec

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Die To Yourself.

People say this phrase all the time. "You must die to yourself to find God." But, what does it really mean? Obviously the literal meaning is to give up all your wants and your desires, so there is room for the Lord to show you what He has in store for you and what His wants and His desires are for you. But why do we "die" to ourselves in the first place?


Recently, I was thinking about life and death. The bible says in Philippians 1:21 "21For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Now what does this mean? Well, lets look at a literal meaning. On the Earth, when we are living and breathing physically, were living for Christ and sharing His word. We are working for the Lord, and alive. But, when we die, we enter a much greater life, eternal life. In this life, we can run with Jesus forever, and God we will worship all the time. How amazing? So dieing is far more gain then living.


So, when you look at "Dieing to yourself" it only makes sense that in order to be CLOSER to Him, we must die to ourselves. When we die physically, we are brought closer to Him in eternal life, so when we die to ourselves on the earth we are brought closer to Him spiritually.


Empty yourself of you, so you can be filled with the Spirit and alive.

Rest, Prepare, Live.

As I sat in my "quiet time" today, I was asking God to start showing me new things. I have been in neutral it feels for a couple of days now, and I don't like that! I was just really ready for some action, learning, and fun. But as I kept asking, slowly I realized something.


A lot is going to start happening as we start to get closer to school starting back up, I can already tell. And I feel like the beginning of the summer the Lord just dumped all this knowledge on a lot of people, and now we are supposed to not only retain that knowledge, but rest. It's kind of that awkward point in time before you go out to "war" or whatever you would want to call it. You've learned about all these things, have the tools to fight (or experience), and you're just SO ready to use them. But this is a resting time, before the battle (or life) happens.


So here are the 3 points I'm trying to make:

1. Do not get anxious for what the Lord will bring you.


"Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart. Wait, I say, on the Lord!" Psalm 27:14

2. Rest in a preparing fashion. Do not rest and get lazy, but rest and RETAIN the knowledge He has given you.

Luke 22:46
"Why are you sleeping?" he asked them. "Get up and pray so that you will not fall into temptation."

3.Don't worry, live. Wait for the Lord, and just be patient, but don't stop your life. You never know what small lessons He may bring you still.

Matthew 6:34 (The Message)
34"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes."

Friday, July 11, 2008

Think.

Just think about this video as you watch it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=piuoGb-Nhfw&feature=related

Would you stand up?
Is that flame inside of you strong enough?
Your passion for Him?

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

2 Day Fast :]

About three days ago I decided that the Lord was telling me to fast the computer, because I am on it SOOO much. I wasn’t positive about all the reasons, but I just went with it I guess. So during my 2 day fast, I came across a verse that basically told me WHY I needed to fast in the first place (thank goodness I did!) That verse is Matthew 5:8- You’re blessed when you get your inside world (your heart and your mind) put right. Then you can see God in the outside world. “The Message”


I realized then that this was what I was fasting for! I was supposed to fast the computer because my heart and mind were getting off track. I was getting distracted, which is SO easy for us to do as humans. But no, I didn’t let the devil win this battle! So many times people wonder, “Why can’t I hear the Holy Spirit? Or see God’s works?” Well, just like this verse says, you have got to be PREPARED to see them, in this case with your heart and mind. This brings me to my next point.


God created humans to have a relationship for Him, like Adam and Eve did in the Garden of Eden. They were SO CLOSE to Him! They walked with Him and had conversations, etc. Well, He STILL WANTS THAT! And, first He gave His son (Jesus Christ) to make it possible for Him to show us and speak to us, but there’s more that you have to do after accepting His son. In Mark 6:1-6 it explains how Jesus visits His hometown after He has performed all these other miracles elsewhere, and speaks on that Sunday at the service. After His sermon, all the people are at first amazed at how much wisdom this Man had gained! But in THE NEXT BREATH they were down talking Him. “He’s only a carpenter, just Mary’s son. How could He do anything great?” And for this VERY REASON, Jesus could NOT perform miracles in that town. They were hindering Him, and so He couldn’t show them His total power.


So basically you can hinder the Spirit whether you want to or not. He can only use you if you are willing, and purify your heart and your mind. So what are you willing to do for Him to use you and reveal multiple things to you?

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Update, some thoughts.

Hello all!
Sorry for the long time no post situation! Haha I've been very busy. Fourth of July was amazing, I spent it with a lot of friends from church out at UCO, hung out, watched the awesome fireworks, and went to a late night movie (Hancock) to end it all up :]. Also, the next day I went to church and spent the night at Jacob and Kody's house, where we lit fireworks. This year's holiday rocked! I hope yours went as well as mine :].


As for learning, I'm trying to still slow down from the craziness and get back to what He's teaching me. Before the weekend came, I kept thinking about how I can show Him to more people, in the way I act. And then I kind of had a "DUH!" moment, when I realized in order to show Him, I need to be more like Him, so people will see Him when they are around me! So I dug into it a bit.


As I researched it, that entire last week the Fruit of the Spirit kept coming up! Right and left I kept hearing it, so I decided to think about it and dwell on it. As I did, I finally realized WHAT they mean. I have heard that term since I was super little, and just now put together that He has put the answer key to how He acted (Jesus) here on earth in these "fruits". So I encourage you to look over them, think about how they apply in your life, and show Jesus' acts more to whoever you're influencing throughout your every day. Which the actual term of "Christianity" means to be like Christ. So here's the answer:


Galations 5:22-23
But the fruit of the [Holy] Spirit [the work which His presence within accomplishes] is love, joy (gladness), peace, patience (an even temper, forbearance), kindness, goodness (benevolence), faithfulness, 23 Gentleness (meekness, humility), and self-control (self-restraint, continence).

Thursday, July 3, 2008

You have the power, in His name.

This song, just describes what I am realizing perfectly.

History (Matthew West)

Well It's been a bad day
You've been looking back
And all you can see is everything you wish you could take back
All your mistakes
A world of regrets
All of those moments you would rather forget
I know it's hard to believe Let me refresh your memory

CHORUS
Yesterday is history And history is miles away
So, leave it all behind you
But let it always remind you of the day
The day that love made history

You know you can't stay right where you fell
The hardest part is forgiving yourself
But let's take a walk into today
And don't let your past get in the way

Would you believe that you are history in the making, in the making?
Every choice that you are making
Every step that you are taking
Every chain that you are breaking
History is in the making
Every word that you are saying
Every prayer that you are praying
Every chain that you are breaking
History is in the making
History is in the making
History is in the making



This song, is perfect for forgiveness, and moving on. We are human, and we are SOO gonna make mistakes. But look at what the song is saying, YESTERDAY, IS HISTORY. and HISTORY, IS MILES AWAY. so, LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND YOU. This part in itself, is saying "don't hinder what the Lord can do through you by worrying about your sin!" move on. it's all behind you. the Bible says our past, present, and future sin has been forgiven. so it's now up to you, to move on.

LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND YOU, BUT LET IT ALWAYS REMIND YOU OF THE DAY, THE DAY THAT LOVE MADE HISTORY. This is my favorite part, because although you have been forgiven, you can't forget the sin or else it will keep coming back. You have to take charge, and use it as a REMINDER of what His grace and His sacrifice has given you.


First accept the sacrifice, then remember it, now GO.
The last part
Every choice that you are making - Make choices that honor Him, and you will be rewarded.
Every step that you are taking - Your actions speak way louder then words.
Every chain that you are breaking - Your forgiveness and ability to overcome (through Him), is inspiration to many others.
History is in the making - Remember, your MAKING HISTORY.


So I leave you with this, is the history you are NOW making, gonna be one to remember? Or a regretful, dark path? Because the truth is, you have the POWER in you through Him to forgive the past, walk in the present, and create amazing history for the future.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Two Things.

Okay, so I was just in "quiet time" or whatever you would like to call it with the Lord, and He has shown me quite a bit. First of all, I feel as though right now im coming out of the dip (referring back to Craig's sermon on Habakuk). My spiritual life is growing, and I'm just really becoming closer to the Lord. I know I am not at the top yet, but that is where I'm headed. Not only can a dip be the dip in life, like things just NEVER go you're way, but it's also a dip in spirituality for me. But like Craig said, embrace the dip, and wait it out. It's totally worth it.


So now I'm on the starting line to climp that line up to reach the top right? Well let me tell you, I'm a little nervous. God has set up so many things in my life, and I want to execute them for Him! I just want to follow that path that He has set, so I can get to the destination as He would want me to. Well for this, I simply need one word: GUIDANCE. Who's basically the KING of GUIDANCE? That would be God :]. I mean I just pray to give the right advice, to say the right things, and live for Him as He would want me to. I'm human, sure I'll make mistakes, but HE'S inside of me, so that should help a little ;]. I just ask for prayer that as He takes me into this season, I would not hinder Him but grow in Him and live for Him!


The second thing is, as I was worshiping, I prayed yet again that I could remember WHAT I was worshiping for. It could be so many reasons! But for tonight, it was just mainly focused around Jesus DIEING on the cross for me. So i worshiped to a song called "This Man" by Jeremy Camp. Here are some of the lyrics:

Would you take the place of this man?
Would you take the nails from His hands?

The King, was placed, for all the world to show disgrace
But only beauty flowed from this place.



Now see, I got this vision when that 3rd line came up. It was kind of a modern realization, and it was the cross, and Him hanging there, but in a T.V. screen. Because now days, almost the whole world it seems has a T.V. or computer. And He was placed on this cross in front of the ENTIRE world to show disgrace. That just ripped me up. That everyone was seeing Him, and so many were laughing, tearing Him down. Wow, thank you Jesus. Thank you Thank you Thank you.


The other part of the vision, was Satan RUNNING. Running away from Jesus for He knew that this was NOT the guy to mess with, and that he was toast by Jesus' love. I can see him running inside a cave where its dark, and he can grow. Just like sin can, as long as its in the darkness. I finally understand that sin DOES grow in the dark. so LET IT OUT INTO THE LIGHT. The LIGHT can kill it, it's CHRIST!!!! :].